How to Deal with Students with Senioritis (When You Are Also a Student with Senioritis)
How to Deal with Students with Senioritis (When You Are Also a Student with Senioritis)
Wake up on the Monday morning of the
last full week of student teaching, feeling groggy, cranky, and utterly
exhausted despite the fact that you’ve just woken up from a full 10 hours of
sleep. Lie in bed for ten or fifteen minutes longer than you really should, and
then get up and frantically rush through your morning routine, scrapping steps
as you go—steps that were easy to regularly follow at the beginning of the year
but are not even fathomable now—like putting on makeup or packing a fresh and
healthy lunch. Rush out the door and take your first deep breath of the day as
you ride the elevator down to the parking lot, reminding yourself silently that
there are only nine days of this left to go.
Pull into the school parking lot at
7:38am. Prior to this month, the teacher lot would have been completely full
this late in the morning. But in April, anything goes, and everyone is just
trying to survive, so you’re in surprisingly good company being a teacher who
waits until the last second to arrive at school.
Throw your ridiculous mountain of
stuff—your bag, kombucha, water bottle, lunch box, and laptop—on your desk and
try to gain your composure and get organized before the first group of students
come in. Take a deep breath and build the façade around you that you are
cheery, highly motivated, and energized this morning. Ready yourself to
convince masses of teenagers that doing work in class is worth it, and telling
thirty different individual students that you’ll extend deadlines for them, and
sign passes so they can come get one-on-one help with you even though you know
they chose to be on their phones each of the hundred times you explained the
assignment. Try to believe that they are doing their best even though you know
you care more about them graduating than they do. Do everything you can to
suppress the exhaustion and frustration you are feeling and continue to drag
them to the finish line.
Beeeeep! Sigh in relief as
the bell rings at the end of 6th hour, signaling the beginning of
lunch. Bask in the knowledge that you’ll get the next forty-five minutes to yourself
and your colleagues who sympathize with how you’re feeling. Click! Click!
Creeeeek! Grimace, but not too visibly, as a student opens the door and
comes in.
It’s
Jaydon from 2nd hour, who had an unexcused absence this morning for
the third time in a row and wants to know “if we did anything.” You take time
out of your sacred lunch to re-explain the assignment and answer all his
questions. He asks you to check his grade and to help him with the assignment
he could have gotten help with during class had he not been walking the halls
aimlessly with his brother and girlfriend. You try your best to keep up your
encouraging and supportive façade as you tell him he is still failing but that
you’ll still accept five different assignments late if he can get them done
this week. You smile as internally you dread his response, knowing he will ask
for detailed help on each of these assignments, some of which were due eight
weeks ago, and all of which have been explained over and over and over all
semester. But you know he has a life, and that he is just experiencing
senioritis, and that he really doesn’t mean to be a bother or to be
disrespectful. So, you calmly help him through everything and work with him to
create a plan to graduate.
You
try desperately to keep your spirits up (or to at least convince students that
your spirits are up) for the last two classes of the day. You spend the
afternoon having to re-explain overdue assignments, repeat what your mentor
teacher has already said six times for students who were not listening, and
scrolling back to February in the grade book to enter scores for assignments
that have just been turned in, about half of which end up having to be thrown
out due to being plagiarized or copied from a peer.
The
final bell rings and you pack your stuff up. You walk out to your car and start
it, half-listening to NPR as Jedd Beaudoin gives his latest music review,
decompressing from the day and realizing that you genuinely feel too tired to
make the three-minute drive home.
You
unlock your front door and drop your things on the chair as your puppy greets
you excitedly. You take her outside to potty first thing before you sit down
and risk feeling unable to get up. You bring her back up the elevator and then
you lie in bed, turn on your comfort show, usually Gilmore Girls reruns you’ve
seen hundreds of times, and fall asleep for a four-hour nap at 4:35pm, vaguely
worried that it will make in harder to sleep tonight but confident that, like
last week, the exhaustion in you runs so deep that you will still be out by
10:00, and unfortunately still feel tired in the morning.
Only
8 more days.
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ReplyDeleteGabby,
ReplyDeleteAs someone who also has senioritis, this genre reflection really hit all the emotions I have been feeling as we push to the end of the semester. A mix of tiredness, hopefulness, and the feeling that you are so close, yet so far away. Also, I love that Minnie was able to make an appearance! The line, "You smile internally..." so artfully captures what it is like to think you are sitting down for a break, but realize you actually still have so much work to do. Student teaching is exhausting but so rewarding! Thank you for this accurate portrayal of the semester and for being such a great peer and teacher! - Payton
Gabby,
ReplyDeleteSenioritis and burnout is real. Incredibly real. You've captured the sense of it very well. I'm sure that anyone reading this would be able to easily relate. The ending of your piece is more powerful than you would think. Students may loudly count down the days till school is out, but as we are all aware, teachers do it silently as well. Thank you for sharing this piece with us!
Gabby,
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing such a creative, intense, and refreshingly honest piece of writing with us. I felt so much kinship with this piece and how you poignantly describe the struggles of student teaching. I particularly loved your internal dialogue and your description of the bitter moments of a stolen lunch break--a truly scarring, yet unavoidably event. Thank you for all of the beautiful writing you have given us this semester. I love your heart for both your craft and your students. It's truly been an honor to walk this Core IV path alongside you. <3
From Caleb:
ReplyDeleteHi Gabby!
Holy Toledo, I’m so happy I’ve gotten so many chances to read your writing and listen to your wise and original thoughts over the past few years in this program. You are someone who I can tell is devoted to the craft and the passion that goes into educating others, not for the sake of themselves, but for the sake of those that they’re educating. This writing is something exemplary of your devotion to this profession and every detail that falls into the life of a teacher is thought about and meticulously planned, even when it may seem like a minute, fleeting moment. However, I think that it is those micromoments that mean to the most to our students—that’s something your writing reveals in such a natural way. In spite of roadblocks and obstacles, you are dedicated and ready to take on whatever comes your way! Thank you for capturing the importance of what we do through a wonderfully written piece!
-Caleb
From Brianna:
ReplyDeleteGabby,
Your genre reflection was extremely relatable and well-written, and I appreciate your honesty about the reality of student teaching. Senioritis is for sure real, and I definitely related to the part about steps in the morning routine that were once easy becoming difficult, as well as always feeling tired despite how many hours of sleep you get. I loved your countdown because I have definitely had a countdown since after spring break! You are amazing for helping your students and always pushing them to do their best. You never give up and continue to help students which is amazing. You are an amazing educator, and I am so excited to get to work in the same district as you next school year!